Joined: Aug 2010
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Well
10/21/2017 at 7:22 AM
Sounds like you are living with guilt and a conscience, maybe a good thing, maybe not.
My only bit of information I could offer would be find one person you know you can trust, and document names, dates, conversations and events that make you feel this way. Keep a daily log and present it to your trusted friend every day for them to keep. If something does happen to you it gives a starting point.
Life can be made difficult by the choices we make, hope everything works itself out.