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Some Dude
4/6/2016 at 4:31 PM
If you are able to acknowledge that you suffer from Depression and PTSD, then you must also recognize that this is not your ex's fault, nor is it your fault - it is the disease's fault. So stop blaming people, and stop trying to hurt yourself. People do crappy things. Breakups happen. That's life, and life is not as bad as your brain is telling you it is. That's what the disease does - it tricks you into thinking everything is awful, but it isn't.
As for your question - Yes some people suck, but most people don't. The thing is, most people are selfish, even if they don't mean to be, simply because they have to be. It's just survival and the nature of our first-person brains. So sometimes someone is just living their life as best they can, and somehow you get stepped on. They might not even realize they've hurt you. Or if they do, maybe they felt they had no choice.
That being said, it is very difficult staying in a relationship with someone who suffers from mental health issues. I have been on both sides of that coin, and neither is very pleasant. Being dumped mid-depression makes you feel more worthless than ever. But being with someone who is in that dark place is very difficult, and not all people are up for the challenge. (especially people who suffer from it themselves)
The best thing you can do at this point is try to let go of what hurt you in the past, including your ex, and take control of your brain NOW. I know you don't feel like it, but do it anyway. I know fitness, and food, and counseling seems impossible right now - that's just Depression trying to beat you down. Fight back. Go for a walk. Eat something healthy. Talk to a counselor.
You will beat this. Trust me ;)